Gospel Singer Size 8 opens up on losing two pregnancies: I was just afraid that I wouldn't come back from the hospital

Size 8 revealed on Healthy Nation that giving birth to her firstborn child was difficult because she had to have an emergency caesarean after her blood pressure shot to 167.

“I had a rough journey with my firstborn. My blood pressure shot up to 167. At 36 weeks, we had to have an emergency caesarean-section and she was born,”

Size 8 discussed her first pregnancy loss (her second pregnancy), which occurred at only 12 weeks old due to a blighted ovum (occurs when an early embryo never develops).

“I have lost two pregnancies, the first baby (my second born) was only 12 weeks and the second had clocked five months and two weeks,”

“We didn’t get any explanation when we lost the first baby. The doctors could not find its heartbeat. The baby had stopped growing, and we were told it was a blighted ovum.”

After losing her second child, Size 8 tried again and was blessed with a bouncing baby boy, but not without complications that resulted in an acute stroke.

When the pregnancy was only two months old, she was put on bed rest due to her complication.

“I had to take a total bed rest because I had an acute stroke. I wasn’t sure that I would carry him to term. God reassured me despite me visiting the hospital twice a week,”

Size 8 had to be given magnesium and then oxygen when she was eight months pregnant because her and her baby's blood pressure had risen.

“This time I had fits (an unusual condition during pregnancy where high blood pressure results in seizures) and so I was given magnesium to stabilize me. My oxygen levels had dropped, that means I had to be on oxygen as well,”

At around eight weeks into her pregnancy, Size 8 had her second emergency cesarean section.

The baby, however, stabilized after what the Gospel singer believes was divine intervention, and she now considers her son a miracle.

“On the third night, I kept praying and praising God for my son. I had just got out of the washroom when I heard the Holy Spirit telling me to go to the Intensive Care Unit to see him. Upon reaching there, I found doctors surrounding him and figured that something was wrong. The holy spirit again instructed me to place my palm on his chest, and speak life to him. This may sound like fiction, but he stabilized soon after,”

Size 8 lost her fourth pregnancy (which she had secretly nicknamed Peace) to a stillbirth about two and a half months ago, and she was on the verge of losing her own life after having to undergo surgery.

"I didn't want to look at my dead baby because I would be scarred emotionally and i wouldn't move on, I had connected with her and had secretely nicknamed her Peace."

Before undergoing life-threatening surgery the next day, the singer sought solace from her children.

“I was to be admitted that night but I protested. I had already lost the one in the womb, my blood pressure was at an all-time high, and I knew that there was a possibility of losing life on the surgical table. I wanted to see my son and daughter desperately should I fail to go back home…I went home that night and held my children’s hands and prayed crying…I was just afraid that I couldn’t come back from the hospital.”

“I was battling high blood pressure on my own, but it was also worse due to the dead baby in the womb. The pressure wouldn’t subside. I was at a risk of dying with the baby still in the womb, and I also risked dying on the operation table due to blood loss…my surgeon was amazingly fast and efficient. Taking the shortest time possible to remove the baby and stitch me up gave them a chance at saving my life. I was then wheeled to the high dependency unit for monitoring.”

Size 8 recalls pleading with God to spare her life because she had two other children who relied on her survival.

“At the table I cried to God telling Him to spare my life. I reminded Him that I had delivered my other two children in agony, and that I wanted to be alive to raise them up.”

When she had to break the news to her first-born daughter about the loss of her second child, the singer says it was extremely heartbreaking.

Size 8 was also distressed as a result of her husband's ordeal, which she admits was not easy.

“My daughter though I had gone to deliver and when we got home, she rushed to the car asking to see the baby…seeing her in that situation broke my heart.”

“I try to imagine myself in his shoes and I don’t think I would be able to bear that pain. He was deeply affected but he has a masking mechanism that doesn’t let us see his pain…” Size 8 said, speaking about husband, DJ Mo.

Pre-eclampsia is a medical condition that causes high blood pressure and organ damage during pregnancy.